faltered

you know when you're 15
it feels lyk you own the whole world
and when you're 17
it seems lyk you know the whole
as in what is going on around
when you're 19
it seems lyk you rule the whole world
(turning point) when you're 20
all you care about is your life
caring about little details
as in fine lines, wrinkles growing a beeer gut
and stuff lyk dat
that sounds totally random yet true

now im beginning to think that
no one really cares about my life decision
no matter how i spent my money
they have no control over it
until one day you realise
dat your property value is really really low
dat you cannot survive in this world even for a day
sadly dat part has not reach me yet

the reason i chose wat course to major in
was out passion, interest and determination
having second thoughts right now does not help i guess
i need to take a step back
and picture myself right now

oh me being the never-double-check kind of girl
blindly sent an email to the brother
who was flying tp paris at that time
forgotten to attach a picture of a bag she wanted
and ytd while checking thru her mails
stared widely at the screen
lyk it was some jaw dropping news ever
found out dat she didn't really attach the photo
and was left with nothing but sadness all night round.
yes the little dumb me forgot to insert
the cotton escapade bag onto the shopping list
irritated yet contented with what i have

Tell me when I'm dead, is it sleeping on all the words that's you said