disappoinment

everyday i would feel the same emotions towards you
either going to bed or waking up at dawn
but the fact that you promised to change
seems to be a big fat lie
oh please, saying that you are not addicted
and yet smoking up to a whole of maybe 10 sticks
its a abit obivious isn't it

maybe im pissed by the fact that
you stained my whole wardrobe with the smell
and you dared rearrange my stuffs knowing this is not your room
a very big fuck you to you cause my stuff wasn't suppose to mix with his
am i the fool or are just that dumb

to think that i spared you for all the times
you disappointed her was grateful
you should be thankful for having
someone as patient as her to be looking after you
i would have chased you out within a week

i plead with you to stop this habit of yours
im really suffocating because of you
the lack of oxygen and the excessive amount of
carbon monoxide, cyanide etc
is really bad for our health
have you ever given a thought about us
maybe getting stroke, increase of blood pressure
oral cancer or heart attack
yes, esp when someone had gone thru a painful ordeal
one that frightens me most
screw you for not thinking about
ppl my age who are more prone to illnesses
since we are growing and stuff
of course, how could i have forgotten
you are oblivious to these things

In the moonlight of a sorrowful night