troubled

im sittin here once again with tissue stuffed in my nose
ok dat was uncalled for
im feeling much better now
listenin to paramore tracks
well its only one cause i put it on repeat
ha! im weird

sometimes i believe the world revolves around me
and i try so hard to ignore
but to realize dat i get hurt for caring too much
like how do the kids in northern uganda stand so much pain in their life
and how the kids frm parts of uganda are living with AIDS & HIV
knowing dat there is more to life but cant be help to be helpless
and how everythin is interestin cause ppl "pretend" to care
but to actually harm the earth

i had a conversation wit my fren so this how it goes:

me : Do you believe in the climatic change of the earth?
her : It happening already wat.
me: Ya, i know dat. But do you believe in it?
her : No, i rather early den suffer my whole life.
me : You're rite. (starts laughin our asses off)

sometimes i think that is rite
i'd rather die eraly dn suffer
that means there will be less fret about:
1) Economy recession
2) War / Riot / Terrorism
3) Murder / Suicide rates
4) All the other imp things in the world

bt then again this seems too harsh
bt its the reality
am i torn btw my faith or facts about life?

and how yesteryears seem to past by quickly
that you absorbed every moment too slowly
too realize its the break of dawn
and regret havin too know that you won't be able to go thru it again
the pain, the laughter, the stupidity of all events that ever occurred to us
and how we grow older but nvr seem to mature in our acts
but i guess its too late now

when im older, i want to be a cupcake taste tester